Monday, February 27, 2006

-Gd day at Work, Sucky day after work!-

shit day!! make me feel low after work.. especially i was on the way back home on my usual route.
it all started when i step out of office, going to my usual MAmA shop to haf a drink there.. so looking at the time, wondering is it a gd time to call rainbow, so decided to call la.. already after 630.. everyone shld be on their way back home le..
so called ask her wanna go jog anot.. haha she told me the bus stop dun like her, making her leg black-green on her right knee cap.. hmm.. so i think that cancel the jogging session for the rest of the wk liao lo..
ok la.. that one i cannot really blame her la.. if she really that clumsy :X

then after that sms the stupid WB member,1st ask roy are we jogging anot, as today is monday. then ask the other wanna go coffee anot.. all fcking nv reply.. knn, if my sms is meant for to save my ass.. i think i am long dead already~!
suddenly MS msg me back, saying he is at sch, very tired.. dun feel like drinking
then 20min later.. louis saying "they dun wan, Hw,ms and me at sch" heard liao also feel abit pissed. can't be bother to reply him...
Now Ben Lim, asking me whose going, that means he showing interest.. i just sms louis telling him Ben lim is going.. if they fucking say wanna go.. this show it already. -_-;

i was thinking, fuck loh.. everytime u all ask me go out, i say i dun wan to go.. u all keep forcing me to go.. dun go then u all kpkb,in the end i haf to go. now hardly i'm free.. ask u all wanna go out with me anot.. now cb.. giving me all this shit answer.. what type of attitude is this.

fck it.. now i'm just ANGRY la.. cb


| arhang fought for sanity @ 7:33 PM|

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Saturday, February 18, 2006

-New blog.. New Address, New Beginning~!-

ok many of you might be thinking why would i be creating a new blog while i already a blog which hardly update?
haha coz i feel the old one is quite sucky, as it does not have the Title blank for me to type in my title!! which i feel quite irritated~!

anywAY that not the important point..
just wanna share wat have i done today.

Ok as usual, went for CG at saturday afternoon, then eat at around 5pm at Bedok 85 market.
had stingray~ yummy~~!
then after that i called "ahem", well let just name her "Rainbow" -> WB member shld noe who.
asking her is she still meeting me for the tape returning, as i helped her record some crap 9pm show... wonder why girls like tt show so much.. i think it only a waste of time.

so i was thinking of asking her to come my house void deck, then she return me there.. but she keep asking me whether i go someone else anot.. blah blahz... so i was thinking to go SLS to meet up with louis to buy World of warcraft. so i ask her to come bugis find me loh..
ya after 45min of waiting, finally she showed up.. yea.. indeed louis and i haf been kpkb behind her back.. haha... like why she taking so long... coz she suppose meet me 8pm, outside seiyu
but i think she drive till blur le making so many U-turn and 2 over shot? so hers '3' 10min make me wait around 45min.. haha quite sian at that time..
but anyway when i saw her face.. haha brighten up abit.. so i think its ok~~

At 1st louis wanna watch soccer at my house one de, but i think SCV got problem, so channel 24 got cut off.. so in the end we 4(Me,louis,Rainbow,Evone) went to eat something at Geylang area.
but b4 that, we follow the 2 girls to do their shopping la.. coz i think they come bugis for a purpose, not to pass tape to me... but to go buy one Top, i forgot the shop name.. but it Beside Ajisan Ramen Store..

after the shopping period , we went geylang for you tiao and soya bean drink. after 45min of talk cock session..
haha, funny... coz there the gers order one toast bread? they gonna share it one..
so our order is 3 you tiao(Me,louis,Rainbow), 4 soya bean drink(Obvious!) and one toast bread(Evone*Rainbow).
Girls really "fight" of wat they eating, all wanna go diet.. becoz of the toast bread, which was cut into halves, one bigger then the other. both of them wanna "kill" each other for the smaller pieces.. but when they fight it funny la.. ok la.. got fight at least the relationship will get stronger.. they fought at least 10min, just becoz of the big and small issue~! playing wif the plate of bread toast. move here move there..! knn.. make my head spinning~~!
i mean since rainbow haf you tiao already.. evone, u can let her haf the small one la.. then take the big one la.. u dun even haf you tiao lei..
and come on girls.. u two haf great body.. just a inch won't kill you one de la.. haha
in the end both show black face.. then in the end rainbow got the smaller one..
then both happy again..
when the order came..
she drove us home, and byebye..

But anyway i really wanna speak out wat i really felt about her.. i shall write down here~~
We have been primary sch frenz to sec sch frenz..
but we really seldom talk, think becoz my past Ego is shit. dun really know how to communciate
that why we are not that close at those time.
It only when we started have chalet over chalet, then we started to communciate~~ then that area of time that i started to be interested in her~
well, it might be her gd attitude that attract me, shes really a very kind and friendly person la.
it just gonna be huge crush!! i still dunno how to explain! but i know, at hanwei bday, i haf a sudden urge of crush on her~!
Seriously i dunno why~! when i near her, i always have a nervous feeling.. like scared doing something wrong, speak wrong words.. it like i can't be myself!! i'm just like wearing a MASK in front of her!
Whenever i got chance to go out with her, be it alone of group, seriously in my heart.. i was laughing my heart out~! i was like so happy loh.. damn upon typing those word.. i felt that it very insane for those words out..
So after a period of time, i think i'm abit bth, like wanna know she feel about me.. so i approach ks for help lo.. like helping me to ask her wat she feel about me..

So he agreed...

on Vday, he return me a replied of their conversation, i read liao.. i can feel the world is shaking..
ok the surmary of the conversation is rather simple, She nv give a direct answer to a Yes or a No~ She was like keeping answer "dunno, Sigh, Haizzzz"
So i think somehow she was confuse abt what gonna happen.
one of her line is.. "He also nv say he interested in me, so that means no haf la~"
i believed tt qoute can be testi as she is very confuse~

nevertless, now i'm also confuse.. as we are from pri to sec sch frenz... i think it will be quite werid to start this relationship. i mean we quite liao jie each other already.. know each other gd/bad points.. but i think it will be quite werid lo..

sigh~!
So what i like her, but how am i gonna express my feeling to her?
i think maybe it really need time.
so i think for now, i really must work hard towards her so that she know wat the hell is going on too..

I really hope, she got a feeling towards me is abit special~ that all i ask for~!
coz from her facial expression, i really cannot see any body langauge from her..
like dunno wat she is thinking..

damn it.. i do hope i know what i'm gonna do~!
i be updating my exp with her, here~!
so i think stay tune..


| arhang fought for sanity @ 11:57 PM|

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